Swan

Last night my friend hurt a swan, I don't know why it bothered me so much, but it made me feel truely upset. He threw something hard and plastic at one when he was drunk and said he did it because when he was younger, a Swan pecked him. I've heard that Swans mate for life and this one had a partner and 3 signets. I think it was fine but it made me angry at humans, we have a choice about the actions that we make, that is what is supposed to seperate us from other animals. It's just sad when you see people make the wrong ones.

Blankness

Blankness, once more in my life I feel that there is a sudden emptiness. It can be filled with superficial things that pass my time; working, going out, mindlessly searching for things that amuse me, listening to music which only mirrors this sensation. For once I feel that I have nothing that I am working towards; nothing that I desire is in reach.

I hope to travel and re-awake a passion inside of me, see the real world that we are not shown in this sheltered land. Perhaps this is something to set my mind on. Live life as it was meant to be, I want my body to ache with want for another, and for once that feeling to be returned. I want to see what is out there, stand under the stars in a distant place and feel one with everything.

Right now it feels like I'm in limbo, waiting for something new and fresh. 

I want something to fight for again...

Begin.

Where to start, well the name of this blog comes from a film called Blow, which if you haven't watched, you should:

"Life passes most people by while they're making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime, I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost not enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door."